My husband filed for divorce after 6 years with his main reason being that "I fight with him too much" and he thinks I will never stop.  Yes, we did fight, but I was trying to communicate with him about very serious issues.  

The problem is now my mind is bombarded with "what if it's all my fault" thoughts and it is throwing me into a deep depression and giving me awful anxiety.  I would very much appreciate some honest feedback.  These are the issues I would argue with him about...

So SS13 missed another three days of school this week due to illness. He supposedly threw up at school, so BM picked him up. He had to miss Thursday because the district rule is if you throw up, you can't come back the next day. Friday morning, guess what happened? He got sick again. Apparently spent the day on his PS5 until she made him check assignments. Lounging around, snacking, etc.

SS has acid reflux that causes him to spit up occasionally. He has medication to keep it under control.

DH, who is out of town, asked BM: Has he been taking his medication?

So I made a classic lasagna the other night which turned out perfect if I do say so myself.  If there is one thing I can't stand it is watery lasagna but I digress.  Chef is half Italian and half German and I am French Canadian so I don't really hanker for lasagna very often-- I mostly made it for him as I'm trying to get him to stop cooking and taking over the kitchen again.

So if you recall, I was stuck trying to decide between two dudes I was dating

Well everything was going so good with the dude I chose (thought we'd be riding off into the sunset in wedded bliss in 10 months) lol ...... until he wanted to go all the way with physical intimacy but hemmed and hawed about getting an std test 

Im getting one for myself for peace of mind but I was completely turned off by his reluctance to take his and my intimate health seriously