I just read some of my old blog entries from a couple years ago, and the ones from my old account (BM figured out I was on here so I had to change accounts).

I don't know if this is a good or bad thing, but I have changed in how I deal with the boys. Sadly, I still get so angry with BM and wish, wish, WISH I could find it in my heart to forgive this woman for what she did to SS11 when he was younger.

I also have to laugh. I can't believe how snotty I can be - at times, immature - and how territorial I am. So stupid!

When DH and I were younger we used to feel guilty about the boys going to BM for the summer.

Funny how times change.

This year, we can't wait.

I am totally going to be a love sick puppy over him!

SS13 (just had his birthday) has become hilarious in his old age.

On his birthday, at the breakfast table, he says "SM, I FEEL different now that I am 13." I look at him like he is crazy and gave him some of the waffles we are eating. Then he puts his fork down and very quietly and seriously says "I'm actually kind of worried. I mean my underwear even feels tight."

I blush and reply "Perhaps you should talk to your Dad about that?"

So it has been a very long time since I last posted here but the therapy that you can get is worth it ...
My last post was in April 2011 and I thought we "lost" custody of SS9 and SS11 ... who are both a year older.
What a difference a year makes.

In a year, I deployed AGAIN and in that year, DH found some deep rooted anger and didn't take the fight laying down. He shelled out another $3k and went back to court for the kids. He won by getting another judge - thank God for the appeal process. I say he "won" but it doesn't seem like it.