Since I am soon to be an ExSM is it ok for me to still come here and get support from you guys. I just love the community here and all of the support and guidance. Is it ok for me to post O.T things just to clear my head. Or do you guys think I should head over to another site? My world is just crashing down and the only thing that keeps me half way sane is comming to steptalk.

With all that I've been going threw all I can think about is DH and why he couldn't have just talked to me. Why he couldn't just love me and why he felt the need to sign up for a dating website did he think of me at all did he care if he hurt me does he still love me? I can't keep thinking and crying. Does anyone have any funny stories? even a joke something. I just need to laugh to keep from crying.

I walked in on DH on a dating website just sitting on our bed out in the open like nothing. I'm threw I'm fucking threw. He trampled my heart for the last time. I type this with tears plastering my face. My stepmom threw all his shit on the lawn and told him to get the fuck out and my dad counted to three before he beats his ass. I felt him pulling away I tried setting up counseling sessions. He begged me to come home after our last fight. Guys I know I was so strong last time but now I feel my whole world slipping away.

I feel like my 9 month old hates me today. I came home from work and tried to hold him and he hit started hitting me and screaming until I gave him back to DH. I tried feeding him and hit bit down on my breast hard as heck he almost drew blood and when I told him no you don't bit he starting hitting me in my face. He's been playing with DH's face and laughing, playing peek-a-boo with my dad and he was even laying on my SM and playing with her necklace and laughing at SS5 who was making faces behind her. but whenever I touch him he throws a fit. Its starting to hurt my feelings.