I just need a second to vent my emotions before I get tears all over my keyboard at work. I got a text from my brother asking me if I wanted to carpool to the family reunion and if I already had my hotel money. No one even told me the family reunion was happening this year. He assumed our mother filled me in. I messaged my mother to tell her I was coming after not answering my text for two days I received a call this morning.

* this isn't an exact transcript just the best of my memory*

Mom: Hey honey I just think it'd be best for you to skip the reunion this year.

My brother calls me pissed and on the verge of tears. He tells me my FSIL ran off with his computer, stashed money, and play station and left him a note saying she didn't love him anymore. I drive over to his house to comfort him. He's dumb butt is chilling on the couch playing on his play station laptop by his side like nothing happened. He just leans over and says " hey sis sup you need money" and pulls out a 20 from his wallet. I punched him a few times. I wanted to knee him in the sack for getting me all riled up for nothing.

As some of you well know I've been going through a messy divorce. Just trying to move on with my life but he won't let go. He sent me a letter highlighting all the reasons I should take him back.

Hey guys here is an update on how baby and I are doing. We just finally got settled down into our new apartment. TBH it sucks. Not the apartment but the loneliness the knowing I have to wake up and do this all by myself. If I have a project for work I have to keep an eye on baby and work with no one to help me. At night when I'm scared or baby I crying the only one to silence my fears is God and myself I don't have anyone to snuggle up to tell me it’s alright. I have to wake up every time baby cries and change every diaper myself.