So, I've been married for a year now... it sure has gone by fast. I still haven't been able to really open up to my SD3 yet. She is a nice little girl and acts like a 3 yr old in her situation would... I guess. I don't have any children of my own so not really sure how you're suppose to be a mom. So far, everytime my SD3 has come over to visit, I've been elsewhere. My DH and her spend their time downstairs and I'm upstairs just waiting until it's time for her to go home. It's not that I dislike her per say, or maybe I do dislike her. I can't say what this feeling is really. The BM and I don't get along well and that's her fault. I tried to initiate some kind of civil foundation with her but she wasn't having it. Sometimes I wonder if the bm and I were on better terms, would I be able to be around my SD more? Cause as of right now, I can't seem to open up my heart to her and I know my DH longs to see me and her bonding but... I just don't know how to do that. I try to play with her and she always says hello to me when I walk into the room she's playing in. I've bought her toys to play with and I'm not mean to her. However, I'm distant on the inside. I don't love her and that's ok for right now. You can't rush love with anyone cause that sort of thing takes time to build. I wish I could break this shell I have towards her, I just need to know where it's stemming from. I've been thinking and I'm starting to think it's cause of the BM. Then again, I don't really know how to interact with someone else's child that's supposed to be in my life forever. I didn't think about all of this when I married the man. Now that I'm involved, I know I need to step up to the plate. What is it that I need to do???