The earlier post on stepfathers having it easier than stepmothers got me thinking.

I hope some old friends are still hanging around here because I could use an STalk vent session!

I will probably be back for good at some point since my new love interest has a son :jawdrop: :jawdrop: :jawdrop:

I am in holiday mourning mode and have a terrible cold right now, too. The first holiday season after the end of a marriage is certainly a difficult time... I don't think I realized it would be this weird/isolating/depressing.

I think I was in shock and/or on some kind of high the first few weeks after leaving EX because now I feel far worse.

Missing my dog and the skids a lot these days. I feel such disgust that he "realized" what I meant to him after I left - as you all warned he would. I get home to my way too small apartment and get angry because I feel claustrophobic and lonely.

I feel jaded about men. Like they are all game players and liars.

I wanted to get healthier but I've turned to smoking and drinking even more.

It has been over a week now in my place. I got some more furniture and I am starting to feel somewhat more comfortable there.

My friend couldn't keep my dog; I think he was too high energy and she is overwhelmed with all of her kids as it is. He went to another home, a couple with a 10 year old son who live on 3 acres. They sent me a couple of updates and he seems to be doing well. Although they were not my first choice, they seem like decent people. I am definitely grieving over the loss of my boy.