Ex and I have been separated over 2 months now - although it seems longer - since those who followed my blog know I was miserable for a looong time.

It has been quite the emotional roller coaster at times.

I blocked ex from my phone and email, then he started sending messages to my work email - which now goes to the junk folder. He has contacted every friend I have, he contacts his niece who works with me during work hours trying to get a hold of me and puts the poor kid in the middle. He wrote a long diatribe on facebook (he is blocked from my page- but others saw it and told me) about how he just found out I was "cheating on him for years" - he had dozens of people commenting about how awful it was and how sorry they were. Anything to slander me. He also has a few personal photos of me from over the years that is threatening to post to the internet to "make me famous". I have all of these threats saved and they're being forwarded to my lawyer. If need be I will go the restraining order route... I just haven't wanted to deal with that paperwork and court date on top of everything else I have to do.

I just hope it stops. He says he will never ever give up until I go back... but I never will and I have been very forthright about that. There is virtually no reason for us to be in contact, no kids, no assets together... so he is using slander to try to get my attention, then the next day he will post a public apology, he is making himself look beyond crazy and I know he is using drugs. It worries me. I don't want him to die. I just want him to move on.

Now for the positive parts of my life.

I am loving my place. I ordered a divider to divide my living area and bedroom and it just looks perfect. I have a zen theme, plants, bamboo divider, lots of cute decor to make it my own.

My dog is finally adjusted. I am settled into a routine where I exercise 2 days per week, hike on weekends with the dog, I babysit my cousins kids on Wednesday (we always do something fun) and I am even working part time from home for a friend's company to make extra money.

Also I am dating and it is going great...

Ex and I had a mutual friend who we saw a few times per year --we went out to dinner a couple times with him and his ex, or ran into them at barbeques/neighborhood gatherings... that sort of thing. I always really liked the guy, but never once thought of him romantically. After ex went down his drug spiral, he basically stopped associating with us. He also finalized his divorce a year ago and moved out of town. Anyway, a couple weeks ago he got in touch and he asked me out and I went and had a great time. I've seen him a few other times since - he actually cooked for me yesterday at his place. I enjoy being in his company so much that I do not want to stop. I am remembering what it is like to hang out with someone who has their life together and is genuine. My only fear is ex getting wind of it and causing issues for the guy. Obviously falling for a (former) friend was NOT the plan. If he gets wind of it he will be convinced it was an affair I was having the entire time. Oh well.

For now we are taking it slow and have no intention of going public with anything. And who knows if it will even go anywhere, anyway.

I just hope in time, once everything is final, I can breathe easier and feel less threatened by my Ex.

I hope all is well in StepTalk world. I miss it here.

AJ