So the dude who I asked to get tested got tested and showed me his results (guess he didn't want to eff around and find out how fast I'd end it if he didn't). So I suppose fine for now and he's been a gentleman thus far. And asked to define if we were exclusive. 
 

I felt compelled to say yes. 
 

Then later the next morning I thought about the other guy (with the kid) who've I've been also dating. I feel horrible now that they both expressed wanted to commit more and now I have to choose. 

So if you recall, I was stuck trying to decide between two dudes I was dating

Well everything was going so good with the dude I chose (thought we'd be riding off into the sunset in wedded bliss in 10 months) lol ...... until he wanted to go all the way with physical intimacy but hemmed and hawed about getting an std test 

Im getting one for myself for peace of mind but I was completely turned off by his reluctance to take his and my intimate health seriously 

Omg .... nothing worse than trying to figure out who is better 

worrying if they somehow know

feeling guilty knowing intel they don't and not trying to inadvertently hurt anyone

And feeling anxiety that the wrong choice will leave me single for decades

Matter of fact all this thinking has me think maybe I should just be like eff it and eliminate them both

maybe I'm better off single with less stuff to think about

Just curious if you have a favorite flying experiences?

I will say I have a habit of looking in awe at the cockpit while they have the door open. 
 

Because some of these pilots looking like snacks!
 

Wish I knew what all those knobs meant and how to fly a plane but it seems like it would be extremely complicated and my brain would not compute lol (although I'm an excellent pilot of a road vehicle like a car or van)