I am up with DH, the boys are all getting up for school, I have a headache b/c I think I am finally coming down with the cold/flu that everyone else has had for the past week or so. I say I feel flushed and might have a temp. Then ss16 gets out of bed but bs15 is in the shower so DH tells ss16 to go use our bathroom. I am still sitting here not saying a word but DH looks at me and says what now you're mad b/c he has to pee?

As you have read, we have had ss16 for 4.5 yrs now full time. There are days when I feel so DONE. Well today was one of them. I get tired of being the sole bread winner in this household. Today I told DH that if he cannot help me with bringing in more money then he can send ss16 back to BM b/c I have provided more for this kid then his own bio mom for the past years and I am resentful and sick of it. I have been tired, not physically but mentally. I HATE that I am always the one walking out the door to go to work.

...and who does he coming crying to? You got it, daddy. And me of course, now expecting me to be all nice after the way he's been treating me? He has some Kahoonies. My Dh came home today telling me all this and that he had already told ss that he's burned his bridges with me, then ss cried about how it's all the divorce's fault and how he hasn't had a home or family in 6 years and how steelrose always says no to anything to do with dh's family but lets my kids live here, and on and on and on.

Dh's car broke down about 3 weeks ago. He's been driving ss16 to church now for over a year and now with car broken my car has to be used in some fashion. Last week I was going to pick up my daughter (in same direction as the church) and suddenly I was hauling ss16 to church, shopping and picking up my daughter and "make it take an hour so you can just pick up ss on your way back past the church; oh and ss16's gf20 wants to hitch a ride as well".