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And it all boils down to this

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SS20’s last girlfriend decided to reach out via text to my H last week. My H is not good at keeping up with people sometimes and overlooked the message until 3 days later. It was a very detailed text but in short, she said that SS20 may be under the influence of drugs, possibly because SS20 puts all this pressure on himself because he feels he should have bought his mother a house last year. Can you guys f@“ing believe this? That at 20 years old, they STILL somehow destroy themselves to do things for a woman who never knew how to give a flying f&@k about her own kids???

Time to have the talk

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After the last time I wrote, I decided to let SS stay in the basement because of course, I didn’t want to be the bad guy either. However, it is becoming clearer and clearer that SS may need to move out. 

 

Now, because rent is so high here in nyc, I did want for him to apply for affordable housing coops. But I don’t know if I can wait that long for him to leave.

 

How do I demote SS20 from basement to a bedroom?

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Last week, my mother was feeling sick. Immediately I decided to stay with her until she felt better. I asked SS20 to drive me to my mom’s and take DD5 to her dad at his job. On the way there SS wants to know what I was doing and told me that he didn’t think it was a smart idea for me to go because he thought I needed to be there for DD5. 

 

Ny resolution: Is it unrealistic to expect ss20 to move out?

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So in a nutshell, ss20 works at a thrift store for minimum wage 30 hours a week. We bought him a car for his bday, 5k and he put in almost 2k. In a matter of less than a month he managed to get into 3 accidents, on each Friday after the car purchase and the car has been out of commission since the last accident where he alleges someone ran into him. 

 

Updates

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SO has now become DH. We see eye to eye on most things but I feel as if I’ve become a negative person as it relates to the SSs. I do not have a positive attitude or assume positive intent from them. 

We are in the process of purchasing a house since we currently live in a 2 bedroom apartment. The house is big enough for all of the children to have their own rooms. We own the apartment we have and SS19 tried to ask for it but we refused because we knew he wouldn’t be able to afford it. 

I smell an inevitable failure to launch

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Hello all, 

 

Oldest SS is now 18 and should have graduated in March, except now he’s graduating in June as he states he failed a class. It looks like he’s starting to realize the boxing thing may not pan out for him so he’s now decided to become a rapper.

He’s already made 2 songs which his mother helped to put in ITunes. She’s also helped him create his album cover, yet still owes over 30k in child support (125 a week or so for both skids). Tonight he will be in the studio recording another hit from midnight until 4am.

SO gets gift for only one kid

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SS6 gets a WII, while the rest of the kids get nothing from SO. I got something for SS11, SS17 and DD1. DD1 was playing with SO's phone last week while he was asleep and BM2 text to thank him for the WII. SO has not mentioned any of it at all to me. I'm not annoyed that he bought SS6 a gift, I'm annoyed that he doesn't think to even offer half of the financing for any of the kids' gifts.

Absence of girlfriend makes SS17 regress and other news

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Here's an update for you all on my step life. SS17 has for the past few years stated that he's going to make a living as a professional boxer. I have tried to convince him to go to college or think of a back up just in case but he won't hear of it and says that anything else will just take up his time and block him from following his dreams. He also felt that the high school he was in was too ghetto and convinced his mom to switch his schools.

Just more resentment

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I don't know what to think anymore. I am really trying to be happy with SO, but the truth is that I'm not. And I believe that while he can fix it, he won't. Reflecting on it now, I think that because I came out of such a dysfunctional relationship, I saw SO as being such a catch, I did for a moment believe he was The One.

I still can't take their presence sometimes

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When I know the boys are coming home from school, I start to tense up. And I feel guilty a lot of the time because I think they do care about me, I just don't care about them sometimes. I'm resentful still. Resentful that SO gets to have Monday through Wednesday kid free, and Thursday and Friday he's going to bed at 4pm to do the overnight shift, so in a sense he doesn't deal with the kids on those days either.

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