It has only been 5 months, but I think I may have made a big mistake marrying H. I find myself daydreaming about being single (not for dating purposes!! Just to be free and not controlled!!) H told me the other night that there is no 'me' just 'us'...and that he is the head of the household...which means he makes all decisions (without my input) and I have to 'trust' him that he is taking me into consideration. (I work a professional job, mind you.) This didn't go over well with me...at all. I no longer look forward to our evenings alone...I no longer think lovingly about him when a love song comes on the radio. I don't find him attractive...I am just...indifferent. I am just no longer in love...I cannot allow myself to be treated like this...our house feels like a prison to me...I am trying to not make any snap decisions...I am going to a counselor...with H...and will talk about his chauvanistic views on Tuesday with the counselor! Add to this that I just do not love my Skids...they are not horrible (like some stories I read on here), but I just do not love at ALL...I am just not sure that I can tolerate him and his kids for the rest of my life...is this just a normal phase or is this in fact my reality??