It has only been 5 months, but I think I may have made a big mistake marrying H. I find myself daydreaming about being single (not for dating purposes!! Just to be free and not controlled!!) H told me the other night that there is no 'me' just 'us'...and that he is the head of the household...which means he makes all decisions (without my input) and I have to 'trust' him that he is taking me into consideration. (I work a professional job, mind you.) This didn't go over well with me...at all.

Ouch! I was SO frustrated with him and I feel like all my love has been beaten out of me and all I have left is anger and resentment. He is out of town, has been for 2 days...won't be back for another 4...he was boarding a plane...we were arguing...he said sarcastically 'I'm going to let you go now, '...just dripping with anger...and it just slipped out! I said, "I hate you!" and hung up the phone. I don't know what to do. He is on the plane now...and I won't see him for days...and he has an AWFUL temper as it is!!! He will probably never forgive me. He may even want a divorce.