Let me clarify before I start this, that I never do anything to prevent my BIOS from bonding with the steps, or ever mention that my boys are full siblings and the steps are only half.

I've just noticed a bit of a double standard. Both of my steps have siblings through their mother that they have no contact with. Ss10 has two older brothers and Sd9 has an older sister and younger brother and sister. No one seems at all concerned about that 'sibling bond'.

Going to pick up the skids from daycare on Friday, I had my customary panic attack. I was going to arrive at the daycare ten minutes before it closed, and both of my kids were sleeping in the car, so I ended up pulling over in a random parking lot for ten minutes. That's what my life have been reduced to.

I am doing my best to stay detached from the skid drama and stress. I think I am doing pretty good at staying calm and not showing how they get to me. But its building in me..... And I need to let it out, lol.

Quick backstory for those of you who don't follow my blog: Dh needed a car upgrade, so we saved 4 grand from our tax refund from this past year to buy him a newer used car. I held the money for him until the end of July when he was ready to purchase. Between when I gave him the money and when he found a car to buy (about 3-4 weeks) his 4000 dollars was down to 3200. He put an even 3grand down on his car, and the other 2 hundred was spent. A few days after we bought the car we got a child support deposit from bm (her tax refund was withheld and sent to us) in the amount of 2750.