FH has been gone on a 'boy's trip' for the past three days and I miss him terribly! Even though I said I wouldn't shed a tear while he was gone...I did. Only the first night though! I just miss him so much! We have our differences and arguements but when it comes down to it, he's my soulmate and I absolutely know we belong together!

I admit that I'm unemployed, but I'm taking care of my car payment, insurance, the household electric and gas and partial grocery bill for myself and him AND HIS two BRATS...plus I make all their breakfast, lunches and dinners....and do all their laundry and clean the house but apparently that's not enough for FH. I took down half the XMAS (and I say X-mas for a reason...I HATE the holidays and hated it even more this year) decorations....in the house today and I was happy with half because FH decorates like the griswald's....

My brother and I were trucked around to AT LEAST 4 different places on a Christmas...now we HATE Christmas! We both have come to HATE Christmas and we even talked about not celebrating next year and I made the mistake of telling our mom and she told her mom and I got the "guilt call" today from my gram about it... I'm SOOO grinding my teeth right now! My bro and I are going to Mexico next year for Xmas...just so we don't have deal with the bullshit that we have to deal with every year... WE DESERVE A CHRISTMAS THAT WE ENJOY!!!!

I have an email waiting in my drafts to SS10's teacher about an Internet grading system where parents can log on and check on their kid's grades... FH and I don't know the website address nor a sign-on or password right now because it wasn't sent to us from BM. So, I want to gain some control and keep a track on SS's progress, since he has a learning disinility, plus I want to see how he did on his homework that I did with him and tests that I helped him study for. My question is though, should I send the email even though I am technically not his "step-mom" yet?