Hi everyone, today I have been trying to update myself on whats going on with everyone. Since my last blog, I felt like I was going to hit rock bottom with all the craziness that was going on and I decided to take time off and go to my parents' house and get myself together. I left my older daughter with my sister and took the younger one with me. BF was not amused but I had to do what I needed to do for my sanity. I came back yesterday and I am so refreshed. BF and I didn't talk much while I was at my parents' so he was updating me of his divorce situation yesterday.

Hi, please bear with me because I just deleted some of my postings coz I suspected my BF knew about this sight from my web address history. I don't him reading the posts that would be obvious that I was talking about our situation, especially his relationship with his SD. I know he would feel betrayed that I shared my feelings with strangers and not him. But what am I suppose to do when he builds a wall around him and we can't discuss any issues. I am so much open to people on this website than my own BF. That's messed up.

I do not know what else to do to keep my BF afloat. He has been depressed over all the divorce issues and mainly due to the fact that he has not been able to see his kids thanx to psycho BM. All he wants to do is sleep. A few times I have been able to distract his mind but just for a short moment. He is very anxious as we are awaiting the divorce trial judgement after a very unfair trial. He has been adhering to the initial temporary divorce orders for almost 4 yrs and he is at breaking point especially financially.