hey everybody..thought I'd log back in and b*gger him if he wants to look..and maybe because I miss you guys and nobody else seems to understand.. :?
Its over a week now since I got cold feet and gave time on the sm situation..and I'm not coping very well. Exb has packed up and will be moving out next week..and we've been keeping out of each others way pretty much. I am pretty bereft..how many times I can keep going over the whole thing...my main (selfish) thought is that I really love exb and I feel like I cannot live without him..and that I've hurt him because I'm selfish..and I feel like I've betrayed all the things we had together-and all the stuff I said about loving him..
Because I know noone who has ever had to make this decision I feel very alone..and my family seem to be quite relieved and are just carrying on as if I've got off a bus a stop early..My father told me yesterday to start dating again WTF>>??? The fact that I was still cohabiting with exb and I feel like I've made the worst decision of my life didn;t seem to faze him at all.. :O
Anyway-I read this article yesterday about how you shouldn't question your decision and should move on but I wondered if there was anyone who had been on this site who'd made a similar decision and it had worked out ok?
Thanks for listening to my selfpitying drivel...over and out!