I've come to realize that the situation with skids/BM has left me with so much resentment and anger. Anger that DH brought chaos into our relationship and that chaos will follow us for life, while my "baggage" is nowhere near his (my exH and I didn't have kids and we split peacefully). Anger that skids are spoiled rotten and the world must revolve around them and their almighty schedule(per BM, court, inlaws etc) while BD(1) is eclipsed.

In previous blog I mentioned that we had received a recommendation from the GAL that had a placement schedule (50/50) that bounced the skids back and forth between houses literally every other day and totally at random (this is due to the ever important work schedule of BM who can't possible take care of the skids on the day she works. Well come to find out that when skids met with GAL they essentially threw DH under the bus. Suddenly instead of wanting a week to week schedule like they had previously told us, they decided that this ridiculous schedule would be great.

I'm sitting here in tears full of rage while I'm reading the recommendation letter from the Guardian Ad Leitum. DH and I had requested that the court set a fixed placement schedule (we have 50/50) but the current schedule is 5 days with us, 4 with her, 5 with us etc. This has been solely based upon the fact that BM and her dumb*ss Fiancee both work 24 hr shifts as EMTs (they have to work the same shift to be together 24/7). So the GAL is recommending an every other day ping pong schedule one day here, one day there back and forth.

The longest hour of my life was yesterday when I get the phone call from DH that he's on his way home from work (he has an hour commute). I swear that hour took forever to pass. DH has had to work late the last three days. It's great because we could use the money, but since the skids are with us right now that means I am left at home to play Nanny while he's at work. SD11 and I have a great relationship, and other than the typical preteen stuff she is very helpful. SS9, however, is a nightmare. I've written in previous posts about his spoiled, manipulative behavior.