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This is probably going to come off as really silly and like I'm over-thinking things. But, I don't care, I'm posting it anyway. And yes, I do know that I over-think things. It's what I'm good at.

So, anyone who has read my past blogs knows that SD has never really accepted me as part of her dad's life. She has been horrendous towards me, but, she has also had moments where she's awesome towards me. Sadly, those have become fewer and fewer over time, but, I'll live. She's not my kid, and, even if she was, my happiness does not hedge on SD's acceptance.

So much to happen at such an awkward time of year.

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Sorry to blog-hog everyone, but, I'm trying really hard not to get overwhelmed by everything and trying to remind myself that there's still tomorrow to get through first before anything gets figured out. But there is just so much going on right now, and it is so much to process. And of all times, it happens during my finals week?? Grand :/

SD wants to move out here...

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A pit of dread just formed in my gut.

I'm not sure what's going to happen, when, or anything like that (or even if it WILL happen, last time it was a false alarm, so, this could just be the case).

GUBM is going to fight tooth and nail against this because if she lives with us, she loses her CS.

Stress and drama is heading our way. Ugh.

ETA: and now he's on the phone in the back of the house arguing with GUBM about all of this. Ugh. Stress, stress, go away.

Update on the moving situation

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SO finally got to talk to GUBM and SD yesterday about the whole moving situation. They're moving next Friday (on SD's birthday, yea, happy birthday, kid) and SD is going to be starting in her new school that next Monday. SD is not thrilled. SO is not thrilled. GUBM is tickled pink. Because her lease is up on her place at the end of this month and she got this AWESOME *gag* opportunity that just came up and "we just had to act quickly!".

Foulness is afoot, and no, it's not just GUBM's stench.

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GUBM texted SO today to let him know that she's moving soon. Like. Real soon. She'll be registering SD at her new school on Monday and moving to a new area in NJ. She won't say why. SD is MIA so SO can't even talk to her about her own feelings on the matter. It all stinks of shady fishiness if you ask me.

Xmas Gift Bull; or, SD's happiness is the only happiness that matters.

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So, SO and I had a lovely (ha) conversation this week about Xmas/Bday gifts for SD. He wants to get her a gift for both that we really can't afford, but, he whined and moaned about it until I just threw up my hands and gave in. Because, honestly, I was tired of hearing about how I just have a problem with him spending money on his daughter and how HE wants to get this for HIS daughter. Ugh, stop beating that horse. It's dead. Get over it. I will never have a problem with you spending money that WE HAVE on your kid, but I do have a problem with spending money we DO NOT have.

Chatted briefly with SO tonight about "blending" kids

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His one coworker has a 10 year old son and an 11 year old SS who get along famously. SO asked this coworker how that was made possible, and, his coworker told them that they have personalities that complement one another and they don't pick on or bully one another. SO was surprised by this and asked him how come they don't pick on each other. Coworker said "We laid down the law on respecting the other members of this family first and foremost and never let up. We stick to our guns. You have to."

(Slightly OT) I think my mom is obsessed with the SD/SO/GUBM drama...

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I was talking to my mom tonight on my way home from work. Kind of a big mistake, but, you live and learn, right?

Anyway, she asked me how SD was, I told her I didn't know. She asked if SO has been talking to her. I said I didn't know. She asked when SD was going to come visit again and I said I didn't know. "Well, what DO you know??"

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