I don't even know where to start today. It's been something. I talked to BM today. She called my cell after my husband didn't answer his. She called about going to pick up SD17, but when I thought the conversation was over and I went to hang up the phone she started apologizing.

She apologized for calling. She apologized for everything that has happened over the past few years. She apologized for taking SD's word without looking for the truth. She apologized for hurting us. She asked for forgiveness.

Then she asked for help. Not help with SD, but how to make it through each day. How to cope with the pain that SD is causing with her manipulations and lies. She asked how I made it through.

And she thanked me. She thanked me for talking to her 'after everything that happened.'

My heart hurts for her. Not because we are friends - we are definately not - but because she is in pain. I know that she brought much of this on herself. I know that the tide will turn and she will probably 'forget' that she said these things to me. But for today, I just kind of wish that none of us had to go through such tough times.