Found an old log of communication with bm. This was around 2001-2004. Dh was custodial and we had a lot of issues with her showing up on time, sometimes at all, and we did go to court for child support/visitation issues so that's why we were logging everything.

What amazed me was the number of entries that stated that ss reported that bm said this or that about me. From the time he was around 5. Some of which dh emailed her about and she emailed back that she didnt say EXACTLY those things but yes she did say parts of them which was bad enough. This was all so long ago that I had forgotten the sheer number of things that we were hearing back. When ss was about 9-or in 2007 I had come to realize that ss was talking about ME and things I had supposedly said or did which were completely false-I took that to mean that the things he had said that bm had said must also be false. Finding this log, I realize that perhaps he did make up some things, but no, in reality, there was much said about me that actually was admitted to.

I think I had rewrote history a little to think that there was not a lot of PAS or SPAS (stepparental alientation syndrome!)going on-but in retrospect I see that there was quite a bit and I didnt stand a chance.

Then i found a letter from my FIRST skid and my FIRST marriage. She's about about 15 and the letter starts out saying, "First of all YOU have NO say in whether I get to live there or not". Nice. It's not like I paid rent there or anything. What an idiot.

Good times, good memories. Who wouldnt want to be a stepparent when it is such a joyous, rewarding experience?