Seriously struggling
1 week down, 2 more weeks to go. This was a struggle, because DH set a bedtime for SS16, and SS completely ignored it. SD13 had Covid. Then SS got sick. On Wed, both skids were home sick. I work from home, and although they are upstairs and in their rooms and really not bothering me, just knowing people are in my space and not having the house to myself as usual throws me off.
Thursday was the first day that we've had skids where they both were in school since school started. It. Was. Glorious.
But as nice as that was, there are bigger issues. On Tue, SS was showing signs of a cold and although I had given him a Covid test which was negative and colds are going around at school, at 10:15pm when DH was just getting up for work and SS decided that was the perfect time to heat up dinner (he worked til 7:30), DH told me that he told SS he could eat dinner in his room, since he was sick, so he wouldn't be around us. DH was afraid he may have Covid also, even though he tested negative. 1. We have a "no food in bedrooms rule, for good reason. 2. DH was leaving for work in 5 mins and I was going to bed- why would SS eat in his room when he had the entire kitchen to himself? When I pointed this out, DH got Instantly mad because I always "argue things he tells skids". I'm like, but he's heating up the messiest meal I make, I don't want him to eat it in his room, especially when there's no need for him to eat in his room? DH admitted he didn't realize that, but it Didn't matter. DH was pissed. He's sick of me disagreeing with skid things. Stormed out. We have not talked SINCE. That was Tuesday! We have been actively avoiding each other in the house.
I asked him if he wanted to talk sometime on Sat. He said, not really, no. Today I sent a message saying we are married and adults- I'm not going to walk around ignoring and avoiding each other forever. DH said "there's nothing to talk about, he's done with me thinking I can disagree with everything he tells skids", and he's mostly "sick of me chasing after him and getting in his face". For the record, I was not in his face. I did step into the garage and stand a normal distance away because SS was in earshot and I wanted to explain why I said SS didn't need to eat in his room. And sorry DH, but this is my house too, and SS spilled Sriracha on the carpet the 1st week we bought it, and this meal also had sriracha in it. So no, SS didn't need to eat it in his room. DH was pissed and no reasoning with him. Honestly, at this point it feels irrational to me and not at all an appropriate reaction for the situation at hand. Especially when he won't talk to me 5 days later. This has happened quite a few times in the past month, not always skid-related (but never 5 days of no talking- this is a record).
Today is the 1yr anniversary of our wedding reception, which was the best day of my life so far. People keep sending me messages and videos of that day, but I have cried so much today and I'm so heartbroken that instead of being happy I'm embarrassed and sad at the current situation.
Ironically, after a super rough start, both skids are being awesome. SD offered to make dinner last night, which I helped her with, but she did a great job. Today she wanted help picking out an outfit for tourist day at school. SS just got home from work and chatted my ear off about school, homecoming, and fantasy football (we both play).
I'm at a loss as to what to do when he refuses to talk to me. I love DH and can't imagine life without him, but walking away from the whole shebang doesn't sound that terrible right now.
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Counseling
Ask DH to go to counseling with you but if he wont go, go yourself.
I felt the bottom drop out of my life when the SK issues erupted early in our marriage. The situation seemed hopeless and DH refused to go to counseling. Individual counseling changed my life.
I'm wishing you all the best. DH and I celebrated our 48 year anniversary this year and I give counseling much of the credit. Good luck, TrueNorth.
Thank you! I actually did go
Thank you! I actually did go to counseling solo recently. My counselor was great- I honestly think he would be a better marriage counselor for DH and I, and I suggested it a few months ago- DH said no at that time. But the counselor didn't seem to understand that I needed help with my SM struggles. I would tell him situations that I was struggling with and he would praise my response to the situation and say how great of a SM I was and how lucky skids were to have me. Despite my venting here, I do think I'm a pretty solid person for skids, but I I wasn't looking for reinforcement or praise- I needed help with coping and keeping my sanity as a struggling SM.
When DH calms down, I do plan on bringing up counseling again. I've tried 2 counselors on my own so far and haven't found them helpful, so it's discouraging, plus it's so hard to get into counseling these days...
Calling all Steptalkers: need your advice.
I wonder how to find a counselor with experience with step families. I often see people advise to find one who specializes in a specific field, like PTSD, gay issues, child abuse, alcoholism, etc. Maybe one of the Steptalkers will know
It's very difficult honestly
Sometimes you have to have an intiatial to interview the counselor before spilling your guts. It's really hard to find one that can deal with step situations.
Perhaps it's time to just be
Perhaps it's time to just be blunt with the semi/totally clueless men in your life.
Counselor: "Look, I'm not looking for praise here. I *know* I'm a good and solid stepmom. What I need is guidance on how to better communicate in these situations or learn what is/isn't appropriate when it comes to being a good SM. I think you've been a great counselor for me, but if you don't feel qualified to help in this arena, I'd appreciate a referral to someone who can help me with this."
DH: "I won't keep living like this with you. A year ago was our wedding anniversary and I've done nothing but cry today because everyone else seems to be happy for us but not you. I live in this house, too. Having your kids live here is a challenge, but it's even more challenging when you aren't here to deal with the ramifications od choices YOU make in regards to them. I understand that they are teens, and while it is a struggle to deal with that sometimes like it would be for any parent or adult, my bigger issue is you. You not upholding rules we have created together. You not thinking about how your choices regarding the kids impact me, our household that I contribute half to, and our livelihood that I bring in half of. Your parenting is my problem, along with your reaction to the fallout when your choices result in poor outcomes. I'm willing to talk these things through with you, and I think counseling would be helpful with that. But if you're not in it mentally with me anymore, you know how to end this relationship. What *I* won't tolerate are week-long silent treatment episodes and not talking through issues, but if that is the only way that we can resolve to have peace, other than just me rolling over to what you say, then I won't stay here. I want a partnership, so we either work together to make that happen or we need to make the decision that we can't do that and end this. So which direction do you want to go with this?"
Essentially the convo I will
Essentially the convo I will be having with DH when he wakes up. I am pretty fired up right now. 6 days of the Silent Treatment is absolutely ridiculous and I will not continue with it. I should have put an end to it on Sat. when I asked if he wanted to talk sometime that day. I also plan on showing him this:
The silent treatment is an abusive method of control, punishment, avoidance, or disempowerment (sometimes these four typesoverlap, sometimes not) that is a favorite tactic of narcissists, and especially thosewho have a hard time with impulse control, that is, those with more infantile tendencies.
Depending on your DH and how
Depending on your DH and how fired up you are, it might be good to tell him the difference between silent treatment and needing space, and that you're okay with him needing space but it has to have an end point.
Not talking to you at all about anything = abuse tactic. Talking to you about other things but needing time to process this one issue = okay. Not setting up a time to talk about that one thing or agreeing to have a third party help so it festers in you both = toxic. Setting up a time to talk a week later, even if you'd prefer to talk about it now = fine.
I know that's a lot of emotional labor to go through, and perhaps you've already done it before. You can decide if it's too much to do or if you're comfortable laying it out one time for him to absorb. I'd personally follow a three-strikes rule, but I know boundaries are an area I struggle with.
JRI
You coutinue to be the best advice giver here on ST. Hugs and much appreciation to you
Inform him that SS is not longer welcome in your home and
if DH disagrees, neither is DH.
Lather.... rinse.... repeat.
Time for you to keep your foot up daddy's ass until daddy pulls his head out of his own ass and starts parenting and holding his idiot son accountable for behaving properly.
I am sorry that the best day of your life is proving to be a facade and that your DH has been found so lacking.
Take care of you and do not tolerate anything less than appropriate behavior from either your DH or his progeny.
Wow
If my DH spoke to me as yours did, I don't think marriage counseling would save it. We would be looking at divorce lawyers. Sorry but your DH sounds like an unreasonable jerk.
I would agree with this. Not
I would agree with this. Not always, but right now 100%
You know SS is just trying to get a reaction from you
He knows he can start a family fight.
My SK Knew that at bed time they went into there room and had to be quiet. As long as they were quite no care if they actually went to sleep. Out of sight out of mind I had to get up at 4 am. So don't mess with my sleep
Hey, TrueNorth,
Shame on your husband and his childish use of ‘the silent treatment’! Ignoring one’s partner is plain abuse and solves nothing. Additionally, the person on the receiving end of this manipulation suffers both emotionally and physically with headaches, digestive problems and worse. The stress of prolonged silence (five days!) can be devastating.
How sad, that your first anniversary is being celebrated in this disgusting fashion. Hon, regardless of if and when this abuse ends, your husband’s cruelty is going to be hard to get past. I'm with canine; I’d never put up with it!
Childish is exactly it
He also knows that not talking is really stressful for me, so the fact that he's dragging this out even longer makes it feel like he's intentionally "punishing" me, which is disgusting. This is not going to get the reaction he wants out of me.
The petulant child act from
The petulant child act from my husband would not work for me. He can pack up and go, but I won't be ignored by my spouse.
I get a cool down period but that shouldn't be more than overnight. By the next day he should be mature enough to talk about things rationally. If not, a therapist needs to be involved.
100% my thoughts
He said he's "Still so pissed at me for getting in his face". I didn't get in his face. Also, you can still be upset about something and talk it through. Especially almost a WEEK later.
I am starting to fume at how ridiculous this is becoming.
My DH will also agree to
My DH will also agree to 'rules' but then throw me under the bus. So I just don't bother any longer. Any SD issues HE alone deals with.
Now, he gets annoyed and angry with me too if I say anything about the SDs because he sees correction as attack. And we argue. But neither of us do the silent treatment. Ever. If my DH did that to me, instead of talking or arguing and if not settling the issue at least agreeing to disagree, I don't think I could do it. It's punishment for you and you only. To make you apologize to him. Your DH hasn't learned to be a partner or solve disagreement. I hope you take some time for yourself to think your situation through.
I absolutely agree with
I absolutely agree with everyone that the silent treatment is not acceptable- DH and I have had this talk many times. In the first few years of our relationship, DH would often stay mad for days and we wouldn't talk. I told him it was absolutely unacceptable and I couldn't live that way. It has since gotten much better because he made a concerted effort to change, prior to getting married. DH often is over things in a day, we usually immediately discuss things shortly after they happen- much different than in the past and there is only a very rare occasion when we don't talk for a day (and I'm usually mad then also). The progress was HUGE. So the fact that this is happening on the anniversary of our wedding reception (granted, not our actual anniversary, but still a special day none the less), is blowing my mind to be honest. He will be told that it's absolutely not acceptable. In fact, a quick Google of the Silent treatment brings up this:
The silent treatment is an abusive method of control, punishment, avoidance, or disempowerment (sometimes these four typesoverlap, sometimes not) that is a favorite tactic of narcissists, and especially thosewho have a hard time with impulse control, that is, those with more infantile tendencies.
Nah DH, this is definitely not going to be a recurring theme in our relationship. Get it out of your system now, because this is a one and done thing, or you're going to find yourself with ex-wife #2.
Your DH is like mine in the
Your DH is like mine in the fact that he loves to jump on every litlte thing I say in regards to his daughter. The biggest difference though is my DH wakes up every morning like the reset button has been hit. He never wants to carry over anything from the day before. In a lot of ways I hate it becuase sometimes I am still hurting from his words or actions and he wakes up all lovey dovey, but to go days without speaking would be even worse for me I think.
IMO, this is just as bad as
IMO, this is just as bad as the silent treatment, just way more passive. Instead of punishing you by not speaking, it's punishing you by making you carry all the garbage and not having any outlet to resolve problems. Both are extremely unhealthy at the best of times and downright abusive at the worst.