Not only are skids messy as hell, they break every damn thing. I must have written about this before. Skids room is messy but also SS10's bed is broken from them jumping on it, the t.v. in their room has a hole in it from when they snuck their father's bb gun in the room and shot it, their ceiling fan and light have trouble working from them shooting up the room. Nothing is safe around them. Before DD got out of the hospital we purchased a humidifier for her. Of course, the boys wanted to know how much it cost (which we refused to answer as they always ask for the cost of anything purchased for DD), and suddenly they needed one. They claimed they had allergies and they needed one also. When I got back from the hospital with DD, it was in their room. I asked SO if he had given it to them and he said no. I ended up buying a new one because I saw a cuter one I wanted her to have anyway. The following day, the boys broke he humidifier but they "don't know how it happened".

Yesterday SO was telling me one of his family members was asking him for money to get his laptop fixed and I suggested that SO give them the laptop he bought for me when he was getting his Mac fixed and I needed a computer for schoolwork. I don't really use the laptop because I still use SO's Mac for everything and since skids have already broken 2 of his Macs in the past, and ask to use SO's Mac (which I bought him as a Christmas gift a couple years ago), I suggested they use the laptop SO bought me.

Turns out they broke that too. I asked SS10 about it when he got home from school yesterday and he said that SS15 threw him his iphone and SS10 ducked, causing the Iphone to hit the screen of the laptop.

Last month or so, SO and I were talking and he said that he thinks I'm not going to be happy "until the boys move out". I denied it at first, because what I told him is that if they were taught not to break everything or to be a little neater, I could probably coexist in a more peaceful manner with them. But after yesterday, I'm thinking maybe he's right. SO doesn't stress material things and when things break, I do. I feel like they are unappreciative or maybe just plain careless. Skids chalked it up to "Well we're boys and that's what boys do!"

I just bought DD a bouncer and when SS10 began touching it, I sternly told him I do not want him touching DD's things, not because I don't want him to but because he has a knack for "taking things apart". I don't want them in my space at all. I wish their mom could just suddenly become responsible and get visitation again even if it's once a month. While I'm at it, I wish she taught them how to be careful with their things and how to be clean and how to be truthful. I wish she taught them to put dirty spoons/dishes in the sink and trash in the garbage can, not the floor. I wish she taught them not to leave juice/drink containers in the fridge with a last little bit of liquid. But while I'm wishing, I might as well make the biggest wish of all: I wish there wasn't a stepworld to begin with....