It's so terrible to wait and wait to see what's going to happen next with the BM. I feel like I'm sick of this roller coster ride. Why is it this lady has so much control just because she had his kids. I'm having his kid and I feel thrown to the side. I feel like we work around her and their kids and our whole life is on hold until their weekend or phone call. It's going to be like this forever and to tell the truth if I was smart and knew better I would have ran the other way! I don't know that it's worth it. Maybe I could've found a man that's just as perfect minus the DRAMA. I feel like my whole life has changed. We used to go out and have fun. We used to have friends, Now everyone is sick of us, all we do is stress and bitch about the shitty things we go through with the Skids and BM. That's all our lives are. We don't even hardly like each other any more. I know I don't like us any more. The worst part is I hate that I feel this way being 5 months pregnant and the honey moons over. But it's just supposed to be normal shitty right. Like hey honey you didn't take out the trash not our families divided and you suck it's all your fault. I feel like I'm too young for this. I feel like I have one child and bout to have another but instead I'm a instant mother of 4!!! WTF how'd I get myself into this. Has anyone ever thought this and does it get better or go away? Will I be divorced before we even get that married feeling?