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Things are getting better

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Dh is seeing more of the light and SD19 is getting more independant and im loving that. She wasn't fired (see being disengaged i don't have to know everything and frequently i don't get her work dates right because i don't have to know See im learning more and more about this disengaged miraculous breakthrough i luv it.

I've been thinking

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I've just been thinking about my relationship and asking myself is it worth it? And the fact that he dh has 3 other adult children. I'm already feelin like I'm number 3 if the other children ever decided to move in state with dear old dad I'll fall so far off the chart list that it won't be funny. I believe that if I had it to do over again I'd choose a man that didn't have any children. Its not worth it. Hindsight is 20/20. Had I known then what I know now....and all those cliches.

more changes or no changes

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So yesterday sd 19 quit her job cause she ya know I don't know why we have buses and she got friends. She has been here 7 months and just now getting an id 3 days ago. Before I was disengaged I really wanted to help id have made it so she could have done better but sd and dh luv to wait til the last minute to do things oh and he stopped working because he claimed he didn't have a ride to work but all before he was walking or asking folks to take him to and fro work. I asked him why he was so anxious to get car back cause um him and her can get rides me and my daughter have to walk.

a wonderful turkey day weekend

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Hello everybody its been a nice holiday I spent it over a relatives house on wed. wnd Thursday I had to see sd19 but from Friday to Sunday I could forget she exsisted it was bliss. Then reality hit and I had to see her Sunday. In the meantime those days I didn't have to see her dh did another change. A relative of mine who came from out of town let me borrow his car (secretly I thought she was gonna ask for a ride to work she didn't.) I'm actually a little proud of sd she is finding he own way to work@ and being slightly mor independent.

some great changes have happened

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Well yesterday I had to put my car in the shop and dh freaked out it is our only car and he has to work tomorrow now let me explain we have another vehicle that needs a little work he won't fix it and sd has to work friday. I would freak out to if I had sat around for a whole MONTH not trying to find a plan b because my car needs work and id like to keep my car running as long as possible.

this is a hard war

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So back to the disengaging it hard I don't think no I know this not the way I want things t go dh and step daughter are officially gross she walked over to him while he was cooking and put her boob on his arm he did nothing I turned my back. I have never been more turned off or :sick: before with him in my entire life sigh so depressed. :(.

i won a battle last night

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I didn't win the war yet but I finally (again) talked to dh abut adult sd I had stopped talking to him about her and I took his advice I took my medication and we talked and he wanted to deflect reflect and accuse but this time I played it cool and let him finish and I told him find another way to interact with sd it make me uncomfortable he said I was silly and my feelings were wrong I said okay my mom want her place back help her move out by the end of month and I tol him after he dropped the j word (jealous) that if you don't find a better way of showing affection to her we are through.

he still dont damn get it

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So today this evening dh and I are watching a movie and he asks why the dvd player can't be in the bedroom again like it use to be I said no I have my reasons. He was genuinely confused oe presented himself that way
But what I really wanted to say was why would I want to see you and her wrestling and rolling around in the bed together that is suppose to make me feel good? Are you sick ad well as a dumbass. But what good would it do. I'm starting to have small anxiety attacks now hadn't had them in awhile it is unpleasant.

Another interesting thing

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Im sure my titles will get better as i get use to blogging and so forth lol that's not the story this is...About 4 months ago the Sd been her for about 2 and a half months then. Well i was new about how to voice my opinion about her to the dh and how he would react, anyway i had been telling him somethings because this was shortly after the incident of her sitting on his lap at one of my relatives house she is 19.

Strange

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:? So it is early in the morning dh said he going grocery shopping and for day 2 in a row he go get the sd19 sheget her happy go lucky ass up and go if I had 3 wishs 1. Sd get a life 2. Get a life with friends your on damn age 3.get a life friend and the f out my house. I have never never liked clingy people they like a sweaty shirt. I've never been like that my parents are divorced they dvorced when I was 16.

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