That's all I have to say today. Ugh.

I am beginning to question my own point of view. Maybe I'm the crazy one. Maybe I see the world jaded. Maybe I am not capable of being a good person. Maybe I deserve all of this.

Here is my personal tale of woe with my oldest biological child. I am laying it all out there because I am just trying to do what's right and I know a lot of us have been on a different side of the fence. Here goes.

So I've been thinking about guilt. I was reading another post regarding a DH that parents "by guilt". You know how that goes, he feels guilty about the divorce so he gives his child(ren) whatever they want. Then another post was about a BM who overcompensates in insignificant areas of the child's life because she feels guilty about being inadequate in other aspects of her parenting. Or like the skids who won't hug their stepmom in front of their (bio)mom because of their own guilt of being disloyal.Yadda, yadda, yadda.

My skids BM is just like herpes....Not life threatening or anything, just a real pain in the arse. She has flare ups and only medication and a little TLC can calm her down.

Life can be going just great and then for no good reason BAM....a flare up. Like herpes.....her "flare ups" are embarassing, unpredictable, ugly, contagious, and usually short lived. In my mind this whole situation is a sexually transmitted disease.

Anyways, I'm in a mood today and thought I'd share. }:)

So for those of you unaware, the BM in my situation is bipolar and to the best of my knowledge has BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder). This causes her to be very unpredictable and prone to live in constant chaos. So when everything seems to be in order in her life, BM will purposely "stir things up" to cause turmoil. BM literally is not comfortable unless she is knee deep in drama... fabricated or not.