I have posted before, but erased them as my hd takes my phone every once in a while, didn't want him logging in and then war would start again.
I am Bm of a 5 yr old boy, stepmom to 12yr old girl. Been married 2 times, first time 13yrs, my son was born. Got divorced, remarried, have been married almost 3 yrs.
I can't tell u how much I loved my son, he is the light of my life. The sd12, is a good kid too but can't really stand her much. This last yr has burnt me out so bad, lieing, cheating, fighting, manipulating, pushing etc. Can't figure out if its just me or if it is something that I need to walk away from.
My DH and I got along fantastic until I found out he was screwing his ex wife at the same time as he was promising me he was mine etc. little sour about that. The ex was not even his daughters mom. And, dh slept with his ex's mother before they split. And yet still hung out with mother-n-law like nothing happened. Fil even kept coming over to talk to dh about sd12 to go spend time with xfil and xmil (one dh slept with)..
I have a huge problem with dh even talking to them, but it was always a fight to keep him away from them. First clue, right
But after dh and I were married for a year, I found out he was sleeping with his x and me during a period of time. Never showed any signs, any remorse, just did it. I ask why, he says "didnt want to hurt anyone."

On top of dealing with dh and my problems..
Now, sd12 has attitude with me because dh doesn't have any boundaries, sees sd as a playmate rather than a child. This kid can't even shut a door behind her. Have a business, she would leave for school, leave the door unlocked if not wide open. $25,000 plus in equipment inside. I was a little frustrated, but now it is just dislike. Don't want to touch her if I can keep from it. But I'm the adult, and I know the stuff hd has done to me has made me even n more biter. I need advice and help.

She is leaving for the summer, I say good riddons, but if it was my son I would be dying on the inside.
How do I find that middle?
Help.... God forbid I love my husband...but how do I forgive and go on.. We are always having power struggles and I cant take much more.. I am a very strong willed woman, been through a lot in my life. But i'm talking about loosing $50000 in investment plus no job, as we own our own business. I love what I do, can spend as much time with my son as I want...priceless things! So, I need to make this work, but how...