I feel bad, for not being able to bond. My SK is NOT bad, by any means, but all children annoy me to no end. I don't get how to bond with them, the time that i never get from my SO because the SK is always there requiring attention.

Also, my SO doesn't care for how the SK and I interact. My SO always puts on the happy face, everything is fun, you can have whatever you want parent, but will then yell when finally fed up. I understand as that's how my SO was raised, but I wasn't. I was raised with more strict parents where I wasn't the center of the world every minute. There are pros and cons to each way, but i don't think the SO understands that I am not the fuzzy, you're the most important being in my life, you're the reason i breathe parent. I am honestly trying to not let my frustrations show as much (as i recognize i do get annoyed/frustrated quickly), because my SK is not typically doing anything bad, just being a kid. My SO gets very aggravated with me when i show any frustration and the SK is around (SK lives with us 100% of the time). I don't yell, or ever really raise my voice a ton at SK and my SO does, but it's always more of an issue of "why are you acting frustrated" (usually personified in a sigh or a lack of enthusiasm in doing whatever) that is more of a issue than SO's yelling (which usually happens daily, granted my lack of enthusiasm is daily too).

I understand that I did luck out in the fact that the SK is not bad at all and is relatively independent for the age. And I feel bad for not being able to connect (because, I actually really want to, but I just don't know how.. and I'm not getting a ton of positive reinforcement from my SO in that regard). The neediness of a child is frustrating. I know that SK needs alot of time and attention, but i get none. I really don't want to lose my relationship over a kid. Just needed to vent.