To start this off, I love love love my husband. We have a beautiful daughter together and I'm expecting another child now. Our life is perfect in every way ... except for his horrible first marriage.

His ex-wife and he have been divorced for over 8 years. He wasn't happy and didn't want to spend the rest of his life with a person he wasn't in love with. Of course , she's heart broken and constantly acts out and does things just to get his attention. She once dated a guy that beat her, bringing this man around their daughter. Then she'd call my husband crying telling him how scared she was and he went and taught this man a lesson ... NOT FOR HER but for his daughter's safety. Shortly after all this, we met. We were instantly in love, but his ex-wife stalked our every move. Everything we would do , she'd throw a fit about and bring up that he never did that for her. We got a dog, she threw a fit. We bought a house, she threw a fit. We got married, she cut off the family for almost a year. After dealing with so much crap , I told my husband that she could not call and confide in him as a friend. They were divorced and the only thing she needed to speak to him about was her daughter.

Now that she's been cut off for a few years, she tries to use her daughter to manipulate him. She won't let the SD go visit his family, she ignores their calls, and is constantly feeding her BS information because she's scared that she will lose her daughter to us too.

I'm so sick of it. Through all of this now my SD has become a manipulative little liar and is always trying to take advantage of people. She always has to be the center of attention and if you aren't paying attention to her she runs around whining about how bored she is. It's so freaking irritating! I feel so guilty sometimes because she's a young child, but I really don't like her! I hate that she has a bond with my children. I hate that they are both going to be connected to me and my family for the rest of my lives.

I love my husband though. He told me that he realizes how hard this must be and never expects me to feel like I'm obligated to love his first daughter. He didn't want to have children with his first wife but this is something he has to live with. Not that he doesn't love his daughter.

Sometimes I wonder why I didn't find a guy that didn't have all this drama and baggage. Why did I have to fall in love with this guy. What would it have felt like to have him feel all the firsts with me?

I feel so selfish sometimes ... but it bugs me. Especially after days like today when his ex finds out we are having another and starts up her crap again. Last time she requested to raise child support and to avoid court , we agreed to it. I'm sure she'll be trying to do that again this round

Sorry if this is all broken up rambling. I just wanted to get it off my chest!