He was also diagnosed with PTSD after the first Gulf War and Panama.

He was diagnosed while in the military and allowed to reenlist but stopped taking his meds. That was what prevented him being able to reenlist a second time. I and the VA doctor both feel he didn't receive proper treatment or therapy while on active duty.

The only jobs he seems to be able to keep are the kind where he doesn't have to be around other people for any length of time. The few times that he has worked with other people he was stressed out all the time. I think that's why he likes the job he has now so much. It's at night and there is no one around except for a couple of hours now and then. He was an MP and I think that contributed to his problems. There was an incident in Korea when he was on duty that I think can explain some things. He and another MP were called to break up a bar fight and H lost control and severely injured a drunk solider. After his psych eval he got promoted and put in what they called the Goon Squad. From what I understand it was made up of the meanest craziest MPs there. The powers that be didn't think it necessary to get him any treatment. I think everything that happened after that just added to his problems.

He was diagnosed with PTSD not long after he returned from Panama and the first Gulf war. He and my ex had only been back from Panama when they were shipped out to the Gulf. He was in service from the early 80's to mid 90's.

Have been doing some research into mental disorders and Gulf War Syndrome. Talked to my lawyer about it as well as some medical people. It seems that a lot of H's physical problems started after the war and that there has been an increase of emotional problems in Gulf War Vets. Not sure yet how it all connects but the pieces are starting to come together. I'm not casting blame or making excuses for H but it seems to me that some one dropped the ball here. It makes me furious that the army knew he had problems and didn't do more to help him and so many others. I knew that after a major deployment there is a huge upswing in suicides and domestic violence but this brings it home. My oldest son had severe problems after his first tour in Iraq and still does. At least he knows that I'm always here for him and will do anything I can to help him. H refused to get disability when he got out because he's hardheaded. He thought he didn't deserve it for some reason. Maybe now he'll get the help he needs. I'm torn as to what I should do. Part of me wants to run for the hills and another part of me says we can fix this. If I do stay with him I've already told him that sd will be out of the house the day she graduates. I'm standing firm on that.