I am left with thinking I opened the door to put more distance between me and my husband. I am not happy, deep down that is the truth. I don't respect him, especially when he acts like an utter ass wipe! I keep thinking that my first husband would never ever have tolerated the abuse my current husband takes from even his ex. I want him to stand up for himself, and me! These are just wishes, I truly realize he always will be a wimp when it comes to his ex and adult children. Will I be able to stay married to him? I do know that there are other more personal issues that make me unhappy, the way I deal with these feelings? I tune him out, make him unimportant in my mind. And I have to wonder if I purposefully pushed him into daughters arms to get him out of mine. I am very good at taking care of myself. I think I prefer the space........lots if jumbled thoughts tonight.