I'm sick (and at work), I'm stressed (and taking it out on bf), I'm feeling totally crappy about myself as a mom (sm and bio), a gf, a friend, an employee.... My OCD is kicking into high-gear and slowing driving me crazy.... I'm literally sitting here thinking about my dirty sheets and the fact that the house needs to be vacumed and the windows cleaned and the pillows on the couch need slip-covers because I washed the pillows and ruined them, the kids need sheets put on their beds..... it never ends.... just one of those days!

I'm just so damn frustrated AND to top it off.... bm is holding up the divorce (see last post).... I don't understand what is motivating her to act this way. Not understanding just kills me.... does she still want to be with bf (which would never happen as he wants nothing to do with her).... is she trying to get something out of us? Does she no longer agree to the 50/50 parenting plan that we have been following? WHAT IS IT?!

Thanks for listening.... I'm so glad you all are here