Hey guys here is an update on how baby and I are doing. We just finally got settled down into our new apartment. TBH it sucks. Not the apartment but the loneliness the knowing I have to wake up and do this all by myself. If I have a project for work I have to keep an eye on baby and work with no one to help me. At night when I'm scared or baby I crying the only one to silence my fears is God and myself I don't have anyone to snuggle up to tell me it’s alright. I have to wake up every time baby cries and change every diaper myself. I'm the one sitting there with a breast pump on while reading and crunching the numbers or walking around rocking and feeding baby while on the phone with my boss. But you know what I'm ok and we will be ok. I have a RO against STBXH and I have temporary custody of baby and will continue to have custody unless he tries to fight for it after the divorce is finale.

I wake up every morning get baby ready and brew a cup of coffee. On my way dropping him off and heading for work I have the katty perry song “Roar" playing. I dedicate that song to STBXH. I spent years catering to him and his kids and having my voice and my dreams silence. Well know he is going to hear me roaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaar!

I think you all for your love and support it has meant so much to me. For those who try to call me attention seeking saying you don't believe me you can shove it I really don't care what you think. Divorce is messy and crap happens and it may seem crazy to you but I am knee deep in it clawing my way out. I woke up this morning signing along to my song and I just feel so empowered. This is my journey and I am discovering myself as a woman and a mother more every day and I feel stronger than I ever have. For those of you struggling you can do this you deserve to be happy. Yes you will bawl your eyes out and times and you get lonely but that brief moment doesn’t outweigh the feeling of being empowered and free. Let them hear you roar!