After I arrived home from Tennessee, DH told me he planned to go trucking the following day. I asked DH what was the plan with SS. He said that SS was awaiting some GED placement test results but in the meantime, he was supposed to continue going to school. I asked him if he was still supposed to be following the extended schedule until 5pm and DH hesitates, but says yes.  The following day, DH waits until 2 but does not get a load, so has me drive him back home where at 230pm SS is already home. Normally, DH has the strangest quirk of never noticing that SS is home too early, or leaves late to go to school. Normally, DH would just walk in the house and say "Hey SS18" and maybe proceed to cook for him. This is if SS doesn't do the whole "Oh dad, I just noticed that the new BMW or anime show came out" trick. The trick that ensures DH doesn't realize he is home too early. 

I walk back out of the house, where DH is parking the car and told him he needs to ask his son why he is home so early. He waited until I was not around to do it, and when I asked what the excuse was, he had nothing. Then he goes, "I guess I'll just take him trucking with me". Now, I hadn't suggested that seeing as SS is in school, but then I thought to hell with it, yes he should take his son on the road. SS is failing anyway, doesn't go to school when he should and no one seems to care, so let me try not caring too. Plus I get the added benefit of being alone at home with DD8. They've been on the road for over a week now. DH does not seem to want to talk to me about SS, maybe because they are in close proximity to each other. I told him, as long as SS18 does not have a full time job (or part time school/part time job), he will have to go with him each and every time you go on the road. 

While they have been gone, I have enjoyed the utmost peace. I love my life with daughter and my family. My mother has been staying with me to assist me with my daughter so I can work (she is very afraid of being a pestering MIL to DH so she never sleeps over when he's home). I miss DH somewhat, and probably more so for DD8, but I don't miss SS.

This got me to thinking. The house we bought is under mine and my younger brother's name because right when we were about to purchase, they found that DH could not be my cosigner because he had a foreclosure under his name within  the prior 3 years (the house that ex wife finally lost to foreclosure after about 8 years of not paying). I did not qualify alone to buy the house so my younger brother signed for us. While DH has been the one living with me and paying bills, and helped with the down payment, his name is not on the house. 

I began to think of SS23 and the new baby and thinking of how if something happened to me right now, the likelihood is that DH would move on with someone else, and in the long run, I'm not sure DD8 would benefit from the house, though I have always been the higher earner. I also thought of what if something happens to me and DH, together? I'm almost certain BM1 would convince SS23 and SS18 that they should have the house, especially because SS18 lives here.

DH owns an apartment and he refuses to sell it, though I have asked him to because it's been a struggle for me to be the sole earner (his trucking venture has yet to really profit us). My younger brother (the same one who cosigned on the house), is renting said apartment from DH right now. I have decided that I would like to move out and "give" the house to my mother, stepfather and younger brothers to get the wheels moving to get DH and SS18 out of the house. I want my younger brother out of DH's apartment (DH has also been pestering me about raising the rent on my brother again) and into the house, so that DH and SS18 can move back into DH's apartment. I told DH that financially this is a better move for us right now, until he gets on his feet with the trucking (house mortgage is 4K while apartment maintenance is 800 monthly). Seeing as DH is on the road, I told him that when he's ready to settle down again, we can try for another, smaller home. 

I figure that if SS23 gets any ideas about moving back in, he'd only have the option of moving back into the 2 bedroom we used to live in, sharing a room with SS18. And if anything does happen to me, at least there won't be the business of having to move SS18 or DH out of my home. 

As for me, I'm not planning on staying there (I hate the area actually). I plan on purchasing a small apartment for DD and I, close to my house, and when DH decides to settle down, we can try for another place.