Well, last night was pretty heavy. Thanks STalkers for hanging in there with me. Its an emotionally loaded time for my family. More on that...

Dh and I had it out, and picked at the scabbed wound called Feral Forger. He knows how I feel, and I know how he feels. I told him, "hey, my feelings are MY feelings, and its ok for me to have them."

He told me "well, I want to be able to someday, if MY DAUGHTER is out there and needs something from me, to give her some help. She is JUST like I was at her age, exactly. People helped me through it, so I want to be there for her, when she needs me".

I said "well, ok, fine, but why do you grill me, when I ask to borrow 50-100, and then dont ask her when she calls for money? Even her cousin asks her what is it for?" Seriously. I ask for him to loan me 20$ and I am grilled. So that was brought up. Another argument.I couldnt just leave things alone, I had to keep picking.

Thank you all for your feedback and support. He has been a total a$$, but Im in it for at least a few more years. Ive worked too hard to let the house be sold now. I know its possble to start fresh from here, but I guess that I am not ready to give up on DH. As many downs, there have been ups as well, much progress, for all the back pedaling.

We made up, sort of. He doesnt want a divorce, he just wants me to soften up towards Feral Forger. He tells me I am unforgiving (true, why forgive someone who isnt sorry in any way shape or form. You let those ones go...). Ill just reiterate that I cannot be expected to "love his child like my own" or whatever, all I can be expected to do is support him in his love for her.

Feral Forger and Toxic Troll went to visit MIL. As they should, I suppose. As is their RIGHT, Im told.

So, now we are in a holding pattern, waiting for the news to fall like a ton of bricks on our head.

On top of all this, my family is quietly celebrating my late brothers birthday today.