So as most of you already know my skids went back to live with their egg donor after living with us for EXACTLY 3 years. Let me tell you, that was a hard transition. I really missed my SS9 and too be honest, still do, but am not able to see him because he is telling everybody he's afraid of me. (stupid eggdonor is coaching him i'm sure). Well, anyhow, it's been 2 months and i've finally woken up and realized how great it is not having them. My BS3 is happier than he's ever been with SD14 not being there (we all are), and he's not afraid at nights, he's potty trained (SD14 isn't around to flush his head in the toilet anymore) and it's just so much EASIER just having my son. Not too mention cheaper to do things. We can go out to eat for under $30. We can take him hiking and not have to worry about SD14 running off and jumping off cliffs to scare us, or having to listen to SS9 whine about how he hurt his foot, or how he had so much fun, BUT.... Honestly, it's just been really peaceful without them here. I love and miss SS9 but will probably never see him again, because now they are back with eggdonor who will alienate them from us because she's mad that she had supervised visitations. She'll take her $650 a month in child support and run. Hopefully she won't drive drunk with SS9 in the car and kill him, but at this point what can you do besides be happy it's not your problem anymore. Maybe I'm wrong, but i missed being a MOM to my son. With all the drama going on over the past 3 years, i've had to be my son's "protector" instead of his mom, now it's so nice to have him curl up in my because he wants to not because he's afraid of his sister. For the first time since he was 8 months old (when skids came to live with us) i am able to get to know my son and let me tell you, it's wonderful to just be able to focus on him and not the other two and all their crap. ok, sorry, but just had to share!