You can read my other blogs for the back story but I am not living with BF and my SD any more b/c it was a losing situation for me...too much drama and emotional dysfunction with SD, BM, I was carrying everything financially, stressed out, my house was taken over, too much focus on one member of our "new family" (SD)...I just didn't want to do it anymore. BF and I are trying to start over, to date each other, but it's been very difficult for me. We have a history, we're not just meeting each other and getting to know each other. To add to it, I moved to be with him and am still trying to establish roots/make friends/establish a support network...since moving here I also lost my job (a few months ago)...it's been difficult.

I barely see SD now and yet I am consumed with negative feelings re her, maybe even worse than before. I don't know why. You'd think that being away from her I'd feel better but I don't. I can't let it go...I am trying so hard, I really don't want to think about it anymore. But when he has her, I just know he's completely focused on her, what she wants to do, eat, play, etc...I guess that's how it is when you have an only child...I have two and neither is ever the sole focus since there are two of them, unless one of them is out or with their dad, but even then, they don't expect me to make the weekend all about them...they're used to being a part of a family, not the center of a family...

Btw, he has her every other day and EOW (50/50) so it is not like he never sees her.

He says things are "better" but I doubt a few months can change nearly ten years of an established "princess only child" mentality. In a way, his doting over her, which I initially found very attractive and made him seem sensitive and sexy now makes me feel turned off...like how can a man have such an intimate relationship with a child...I sort of feel supplanted by SD!

Any ideas? Sometimes I feel crazy. I am at the point where I feel I should end it just to escape these feelings; however, I want to make a decision based on everything concerned...honestly, I don't think I can be with someone who has an only child, esp. a daughter...um, princess.