This weekend we had a birthday party for my FH's 3 year old niece.

the whole time FMIL bashed me in front of everyone for not having children of my own - and how she thinks it is so bizarre that I am willing to treat someone else's kids like my own but I won't have any myself. WTH? FSIL just kept calling me into the kitchen to keep me busy since she knows the abuse that I am going through. I made a Vanilla Wafer/Banana/Vanilla Pudding desert that took me forever to make...apparently it is also a desert my FH's ex used to make. Whatever. The whole time FMIL said over and over, "I'm not going to eat it - I bet it is not as good as hers..." Stupid biotch - the whole thing was eaten so it must have been good.

this is the part that made my stomach turn...she was raving about how "fertile" her boys are...like they are some kind of spermclan. It was so gross. I wanted to remind her that she has 8 grandchildren. Out of those 8 grandchildren ONE actually lives with both of her biological parents that are together. None of them have full-custody of their kids they shared with their ex's. I wanted to tell her I think it is disgusting that she allowed and encourages her sons to date girls 6 years younger...because they are more "fertile." SO GROSS. - not me lady - I eat my birthcontrol like it's candy. Then she looks at me and says, "yes, I am so thankful to have been given MY two girls from "BM's NAME" - I highly doubt my son will be getting any children out of her (points at me- she had no idea I was paying attention) - she is too occupied with her new career she will be taking on in a few months..." Did I mention she does have three grand-daughters but she ONLY favors one of them. It is GROSS too.

I wanted to throw up...I am not a walking womb. Some women just don't want to have children. Some women choose different paths...what is wrong with her? Or is there really something wrong with me? I am doing everything I can to block her out. And I have done an amazing job. I barely going over to that house. I know that everyone else at the bday party looked at her like SHE was nutso but how she was talking just made me so sick.