Since we got together, SS or BM or both have ruined every single holiday. Thanksgiving, Christmas, my birthday, our wedding day, honeymoon, f'n arbor day it doesnt matter the day he ruins it. How can I live a life where no day can be nice or special? How can I bring kids into this life where no day is special and everything gets ruined or complicated? It's really starting to make me doubt our marriage and make me regret getting with especially since dh doesnt even attempt to try to make things special or try to make up/compensate for how his bullshit ruins and makes my life miserable. I devote my entire life to him and his kid. I am pretty much his sole parent as BM isnt always around and is a worthless/crazy/abusive piece of shit and dh doesnt always do what's right but instead does what's easiest. During SS's ww3 fit, dh even said that he hated being a parent. All of this occurred in front of our guests. My mom said to him that "if you feel like that then my daughter should divorce you tomorrow as to not waste any more of her life." He got mad at her and yelled at her. I just don't know if I cant keep taking so much care of someone who ruins my life. I want kids so bad but don't want to bring them into a stressful household. I really just don't know what to do. I need help amd advice. How do I figure out if dh is worth putting up with this life?