I have always found dh baggage a lot to handle. Two skids by two different women. Quick recap: dh does not see sd7 because her Bm is toxic and moved countries. He does however send extra money every month with cs out of guilt. This has always annoyed me as bm2 stopped dh from seeing his dd. And as I've said before unmarried fathers have little rights here. Anyway we have ss13 every weekend. Overall he is a good child. More so now that he is growing up he is becoming less babyish and therefore easier to be around( this is the child who still held dh hand in public aged 12).

I don't know if it's just hormones because I just had a baby 5 weeks ago but I found myself crying while doing a night feed at 5am last night because I feel like I could have potentially ruined my ohs life. My oh has a bit of a reckless history, had a son at the age of 19 which was the result of sleeping with bm1 the first night. Also has a daughter aged 6 from bm2 after 4 months of dating but has never been involved in her life as bm2 left the country and unmarried fathers essentially have no rights to their kids despite trying to take her to court when sd was born.

It will be last (and only holiday) before baby is due. Bil has hired a boat in France for 3 days. Me and dh are going basically to bring and babysit elderly fil who has early onset dementia and is hard work at the moment. I only agreed to holiday because I wanted fil to get away in the sun for a few days and without us he would not have been able to travel alone (bil and his wife are staying for longer). I will be over 7 months pregnant at this stage.

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Have posted my blog as a comment below as I've spent half an hour pasting and copying and trying to add it as a blog for some reason!