I am back in therapy because of my bitterness and resentment towards SD15 and SS12. They have become the laziest, most entitled children ever. I thought that since their BM is out of the picture and they are in a stable household, things would improve. WRONG. I just had my first child 8 months ago and I can't even trust my SD15 to spend more than five minutes alone with her. Last time I did that, she wiped her face with a toy and surface wipe (Similar to when she wiped down my Yorkie with a Clorox wipe).

For the past six years, I have been driving SD14 and SS11 to school. Now that SD14 is in high school, she goes to a different school, so I drop them off at two different schools every morning. I've never liked doing this, but outside of DH's retired parents, I'm the only one (DH has to be at work early). They both sit in the car with me in silence and it's awkward and I just hate it. Now that I'm pregnant, I am looking to the future where when I go back to work, I will be looked to to drop off three kids to three different places EVERY WEEKDAY morning. This is too much for me.

I am due to give birth to my first child in August and DH and I are very excited. I've even started looking at private schools. I made mention of this to a friend and she made the comment that she didn't know how we would be able to afford private school/college for 3 kids (SD14, SS11, and our daughter). I told her that the skids don't attend private school because DH can't afford it since he doesn't get a dime from BM and raises them fulltime.

I haven't been on here in a couple of years. My skids finally realized in 2012 how crazy and abusive their BM was and have now refused to have a real relationship with her. My SD refuses to speak to her and my SS will only do it every once in a while so she doesn't go completely crazy. During this time, we have remained on a courteous basis with BM's sister and her mother. We invite them to our home for the kid's birthday parties and even take BM's niece on trips to the zoo and other places.