WHAT TO DO NOW!!!!
Well most people would say I got every thing I wanted, however why am I still not happy. My DH won placement my SS crazy BM only gets him wed and EOW, so why am I still checking her myspace to see her mood, why do I care what she is doing, why do I get so mad when I see her? OK so she tried to destroy me for the past 3 years but we won, so I should be happy that she is not, knowing I get to be with her son 25 days out of the month and she gets him 5 days out of the month. Why do I seem obsessed with her? Why when I see her in the store do I have a panic attack, I shake and my heart starts to pound. I thought I was ok with her being her sons mom but am I. Am I upset that she is his mom, or upset is will be apart of my life forever, she does not deserve to be his mom she only cares about getting to me and the CS, which she will not get once my DH takes her back to court. But will I be happy then, I hate that she goes out on the town and has fun, why?? I want to stop caring about her. I want her to be unhappy and I thought that she would be so unhappy losing her son and 150 a week. I thought that would make me happy but I do not get to see her unhappy which makes me crazy, but she must be unhappy having lost a 2 year battle in court,and knowing I put her son to bed every night. Has anyone been in this spot, how do I stop thinking about her and checking her myspace, I am going crazy and not living my life I am too concerned about hers!!!!!
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Tell yourself everyday
"I will not think about BM" and every time she pops into your head push the thoughts right out and repeat you will not think about her. Eventually you will let this go.
Stop checking her Myspace...you probably do this out of habit. It will help to stop. She is unhappy, she couldn't not be. She didn't get what she wanted.
Personally, if we ever had custody of SD,(thank god we don't) I would move away from BM. Just so we could move on with our lives.
I was like that
I was like that ..BM has put us thru hell, court emails anything and everything she could do to make us miserable she would.
I use to pass by BM house all the time to see what was going on, it was on my way home but I could of taken 3 different routes,
I use to look at pictures that my DH had of her during their marriage when he wasnt home.I think its only natural that we are curious about the women our husbands married before
I just completely stopped taking any interest in her, I dont drive by anymore, I dont mention her in our home. I dont ask SS how is BM is...I dont care,,,
One day you will realize how little she matters, the important thing is your family..
My BM invaded our lives for so long that it took me just as long to get her our of lives. Im still not BM free, she is lurking like a bee but if I ever bumped into her in the market I would not get nervous, She is not stronger then me,, she is not better then me..
Hey Maybe I would tell the manager I saw her shoplifting , then leave.....haha