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Submitted by RandomOne on Fri, 07/12/2013 - 9:45pm

Guy got home and we went to pick up his son. Things we're dine till my guy started moving stuff him the kids room back into the guys room we are re doing, I didn't see the point ignoring it back.just to move it again. Then my guy says 'my son is only here for 2/3 weekends a month, I want him to have space in his room.' For some odd ball reason I free a hair up my butt and that hot a nerve. I am late for my monthly (I promise im not pregnant) and I don't know if that has a keyin my switch. I got angry and then emotional in a matter of moments and it's not getting any better. When I get in crappy moods my mind travels to dark places, things click that don't normally click. When my guy said that the first thing that clicked was there's my proof that my guy won't compromise on switching that room to 'our' kids room if we ever have one. Instead he will expect me to give up the office, which will not work , and I won't allow my kid to be in an office. So stop thinking about kids. The second thing that clicked was, he already has a kid, this is why he isn't in a rush or really interested in doing anything in the near future (like a year or so). Urges makes me resent his son even more because I don't want him to be 'my' son. I want my own kid. Orioles no since and im just on a crazy ride tonight and my fingers are crossed I start tomorrow (we are doing on vacation next week and it will be a buzz kill lol).... I,just hate feeling like this and not connecting with this kid. Him being around me right now ANNOYS me. And he's just sitting there. Im sitting in my room starting away from both of them and wanting something to make since...

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Submitted by RandomOne on Fri, 07/12/2013 - 9:51pm

Then I go into the loving room to suck it up and be eighteen and both are spralled out with no room for me. And neither move. Im ready to.go.tiff.sleep. Maybe my mind will be back to.normal. good night s.t.

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Submitted by RandomOne on Fri, 07/12/2013 - 10:06pm

No need, my guy doesn't provide anything that would get me pregnant. We would have to go somewhere and I know my guy wants another kid, he just isn't giving me any idea of when. Beloved me when I say THIs isn't something I wanted To plan . I just wanted it to happen one day and now that it's an option... It may never happen. Im just frustrated right now because in emotional and I have a guilt trip on myself for being this way when+ we get his son today... I,hope this kid understands one day I do care for him, but it's hard being a every other weekend mother figure..

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Submitted by Bossladee on Fri, 07/12/2013 - 10:16pm

Your posts are hard to read. Very.

Every child needs some kind of space when they are staying somewhere. How would you feel if you did have a child, things didn't work out, he/she goes to 'dad's' and.......what, they sleep on the sofa? Put their bag on the table? Even if its just a weekend or 2 a month, your skid can share a room. And also teaching 'your' own child to share and be gracious to others (especially their own family) would be a great thing.

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Submitted by RandomOne on Sat, 07/13/2013 - 7:57am

Sorry, my phone auto corrected a lot. I was typing faster than lighting. When I went to my dads every other weekend I.stayed on the couch. He always had one bed room apartments. Ii do understand him wanting to give hom a plaxe of jis own, we had a two bed room apartment we could barely afford before we moved, so i know how strongly he feels about it. bit just annoyed me last night that my guy was moving EVEryTHING from that room when the bed wasn't even blocked. Ss8 won't have time this weekend to do much in his room besides sleep and.gif get dressed. I just didn't want my guy to move all that stuff back in there after ss leaves. I wouldn't m ind hthe kidsds sharing a room but when my guy and I.talked about it, iff it ever happens, he said he doesn't like the idea because there willwill be an age gap. That is why it's his room. I think.it's stupid but I think it's even more.riduclous for me to be to expressing any emotion when we don't have a nother kid to.worry about. Last night my emotions we're crazy and things tend to snow.ball with me. Things are fine now, I need to wake ss up in a little so hex can nget t ready for practice. And I can start working. I just wish I could understand my feelings sometimes and how quickly they grow. Crying for no reason and getting mad for no real reason just makes me hate being a female some times lol my guy was smart tho, he stayed away and didn't try to reason.with me or figure it out.