Sweet caramel and white chocolate dances over my tongue as I sit sipping my latte in the very coffee chain where I began to fall in love with my second husband. I vividly walk through the memory of our first meeting here.
We both had been married for 18 years, spouses had repeated affairs, children torn and damaged in the mix. Heartache after heartache desperately we both fought for our marriages for 6 years prior to the final pull of the plug. We cried, we laughed, our hearts began to heal as we found safety in our friendship- which was all we intended to be at first. Very quickly we learned that God had bigger and better plans. More than what we could've ever imagined. Soul mates would be putting it lightly. True, deep intimacy would describe it best.
Tender relationships began to form as we dated between our children and each other. It seemed as though it was a smoothly paved road, all of us bringing a sweet form of restoration for each other. Improvement of relationships between Dave (my hubby) and his children, even restoration between my SD and her bio-mom. Our deep wounds found healing in each other as we began to seek God together in this mess we all found ourselves in.

We are Christians, so my blog will most certainly reflect that- can't help it, Christ is my life. If it weren't for the grace of God and my finding security and significance in Him alone, I believe that our marriage would not have made it this far.

Disillusionment has surely sunk in. When we first married, I could not have foreseen the storms we would have to endure. From the baby mama drama, to stepchildren, ex-husband finally pulling his head out of his rear end-yet still reinserting it from time to time, drug use, illegal acts involving courts and police, lying, stealing, rebellion, lack of boundaries, jealous ex's... there seems to have been no lack of trials.
I know for certain that all of things were placed in my life to grow me deeper, call me to stronger reliance on my Lord. By His grace, and strength we are more than conquerors. It is my belief that everything is place in our paths to grow us stronger, make us better, and to teach us. I try to keep in mind that all of these things are a test and a chance to grow, and love better. Sometimes it feels like I am running the never ending marathon. A marathon that is uphill all the way! I want to run this race well...and medal at the end. I pray that my blogs and honest of where I am at will encourage others run the race well alongside of me!
Keeping in mind today that these mountains that we climb as stepparents, new wives and ex-wives are really just speed bumps in the road of life. God gives us strength and grace for it all.
Blessings for a super day.
For our present troubles are small and won't last very long. Yet they produce for us a glory that vastly outweighs them and will last forever! 2 Corinthians 4:17