So... I am happy and thrilled not to have any skid issues, or BM issues, or BF issues. All is well in that world.

However, I had a long talk with my mom about the wedding, and about spending all day tomorrow doing 'girl' stuff. I have cried ever sense that conversation because of the guilt that I have over this hole situation. I want to be there for my mom but shit I can not do it all. I worked at my computer from 5am til 5pm yesterday and ended up falling asleep at 7 because I am so mentally drained. Online to turn around and do it some more today just so I can go hang out with her and her friends tomorrow.

When I told her how much trouble I was having with my math class and how worried I was about it all, she said "Well Maybe you shouldn't take so many classes"

I bit my tongue but gee mom maybe you should stop getting married so many times.

When I was talking to her FH, he was telling me about the people who were going to be at the wedding and said "My neice and nephew might not be able to go because they go to college." I had said "And I dont" he then made some comment about how I take online classes and thats different. Ugh, I don't get my family they preach being open minded and understanding but only when it is convent for them. They keep saying I was the one who said that I wanted to be at the wedding.

Yes I did, but I didn't tell them to make it the day before all my finials are due!!! They were talking about doing something tropical, so I figured they would have some small beach wedding and call it a day. I don't go to school in the summer. Maybe I am being selfish for wanting a bit more consideration however don't get mad at me because I have a life.

At this point, I am going to cancle on saturday. IF I am going to take a afternoon off, it is going to be in my PJ's in front of the TV with my blanket and my kids. I am not driving or getting ready to go anywhere!

Edit: Mind you, when I got married, two weeks before had her FH purposed (three weeks after his divorce finalized) and my wedding then became about them. I never said anything and just went on with my life. However, because they had to go on a two week vacation, most of my last min wedding stuff was done when she wasn't around.