Today started off okay. I mean, I woke up....lol. First thing 2nd BM called me(lets call her BM2). She was nice, just called to say she just wanted to be friends because she wanted to know where her son would be going. Ok I understand that. Also to say that she thought talking to me would be less awkward than her talking to DH, which is true. And to say she was sorry that she was kinda mean when I cooled things off with her. She told me more things about DH which I asked him about, most I already knew, some he said were just untrue.
So then I go to town, come home, send DH a text and nothing. Usually he texts me back immediately because that's the only way we can communicate during the day. But nothing until 10 when he calls. He sounds down, but I can tell it's more than just fatigue. So he tells me he's still mad at me. So here's the story on that. A couple of months ago we went somewhere as a family and a guy I slept with once a long time ago was there. I had never ran into anyone like that before so knowing that hearing about my past makes DH jealous and upset, I opted to say nothing. But I realized later that I would have to say something because it was somewhere that I would be going again and he would be there, and DH might think I had a sinister reason not to tell him if he found out some other way. Then all this came up and I just forgot about it until I was invited to this place again a few days ago. I told DH about it as soon as I spoke to him again and told him I just wouldn't go if it made him uncomfortable. But he blew up and accused me of lying about it. I tried to explain, and thought that we had talked it out, but obviously not. So tonight he wouldn't answer my text and made me feel bad about it again. I kept talking and him giving yes and no and uh huh to everything. Maybe I should have just told him right there as soon as I realized who the guy was but I think if you run into someone like that, there should be no reason to tell the other person especially if you know it will hurt them, and because besides saying hi I never spoke to him. I don't know, I'm confused about what I should have done.
And I'm poed because when it came to BM1 he never told me he had slept with her until she came up pregnant, and she was someone I was around everyday. So why am I the liar?
Ugh, I'm so angry right now, and our marriage is in fragile shape to begin with because all of this came up right before deployment. We can't be together to talk things out face to face, and I think that exaggerates all problems.
But at least this takes my mind off of BM2...I'll take anything right now.