I'm happy he's doing better. Honestly. I would never wish hurt or harm on SS20, especially because it would in turn, hurt SO. But I am having a REALLY hard time being the least bit sympathetic at this point.

Yes, he is in a great deal of pain. Yes he almost died. I get that. But he did this to himself!! I feel like everyone is just SO happy he's not dead that they're forgetting he overdosed AGAIN! For the 5th time that we know of! This wasn't some freak accident, or someone else's doing. HE DID THIS TO HIMSELF!

... he is in a coma with a breathing tube and I'm just at a loss as for what to do or say. I'm feeling guilty about wanting SO to be harder on him ... but this was what I was trying to prevent all this time. It will kill SO if SS does not wake up... and I just don't know what to do. I want to be there at the hospital with him. I feel like I should, instead of sitting here unable to concentrate on ANYTHING and anxiously awaiting every text ... we have other children and I have to be home with them, but I need him to feel my support and love and I just don't know how from here.

So Sunday is SO's niece's communion party. Of course we're planning to go and it's "our weekend" so we'll have Skids with us. Fine I suppose. Anything to keep them busy and out of my hair for a day. Here's the issue I'm having.

Wanting privacy, respect, and kindness is not an outrageous request. I mean call me F*ING crazy, but the way I was brought up it was EXPECTED.

If you are a CHILD and you can see 2 adults having a F*ING conversation and they did not invite you into it, MIND YOUR 12 YEAR OLD BUSINESS! You like to be able to go into your room and close the door and know no one is going to bother you? GOOD! Stay the F*CK out of my room. ESPECIALLY when the door is closed. You want me to be nice to you and do nice things for/with you?? Show me the SAME DAMN COURTESY!