After DH's blowup on the weekend, it became pretty clear to me that nothing with DH and SD7 is never going to change. The next night DH calmed down and tried to explain more of what he had said, which is what I liked that he didn't do when he got upset and let it all hang out. Anyway, in the end he still said the same stuff...it's up to me for any changes to happen with SD7, all the crap she pulled the last 2 years I'm supposed to let go and make her feel better, etc...which makes it clear to me that DH will always defend her no matter what happens.

I think the thing of it is that I'm not happy, haven't been for a while. And if things aren't going to improve at all, which I honestly don't think they will, I don't want to be unhappy for most of my life. And I don't want my daughter growing up with an unhappy mother.

I think DH knows on some level that it's not going to work, but I know when I tell him it's going to kill him. I wish I could skip all that horrible part and just be separated but I know that won't happen.