Oh how I think ending this whole thing would be easier than having to spend another holiday with skids that want nothing to do with me. I have been portrade as such a piece of crap that at times I actually stop and think .. did I do something wrong. The answer is yes ... I loved these kids, wipped their asses, gone to school plays, helped with homework, made their BIO mom mother's day gifts with them, showed them that there is more to life than just finishing High School. Many other things but I will not go on an on. Now I sit and find myself down and out. They come in my home and ignore me, they make their 1/2 siblings feel like they are not worth playing with. I AM DONE! I wish I could blink my eyes and the holidays would be over. Then at least for every visit after their mom can do the same thing she always does, call us to tell us the kids are sick and can't make it up. Just want to vent. Thanks for listening!