Just when I think that things might be ok..reality hits me in the head. Perhaps I should just give up .....give up a man that I love more than anyone I have ever known. But I am so tired of feeling this way. This morning he questioned me about something that I couldn't find in the car that his daughter had left in the car. I honestly looked everywhere and couldn't find it. He told me this morning he was going out to look for it.

My boyfriend of 2 years had a brief relationship with someone a couple months before he met me. She was 20 years his junior but he was just eat up with her. When we first started seeing each other, he was texting her and IMing her on the computer a lot. I saw what he wrote and it was just friendly stuff but none the less it kinda bothered me. It seemed when she talked to him she needed something...gas money, borrow a vehicle, money loan, ect...so I think she only used him to get her along when she need something.