My Feels Have Changed
Today is the day we go get my step kids. I am feeling really bad right now because I just realized I no longer like my step kids. I use to like them alot, then their behavior changed after I married their dad. I tried everything I can think of to bond. Now, I am weary. I am tired of trying. I have become tired of feeling uncomfortable in my own home. My husband only really cares about how they feel when they are hear. It is like he puts me on the back burner, that is until I bring it to his attention. (sigh)
They are not even here yet, but I can not wait for them to go home...I think I will stay home instead of going with my husband to get them.
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Sorry for the typo *here is
Sorry for the typo *here is what I meant...
I have the same feeling as
I have the same feeling as you at this exact moment!! We used to have a great relationship, it actually got better when we got married...and it totally took a decline at a time that I can't pinpoint at all. I am totally uncomfortable in my own house because none of the rules we established are EVER followed...and it's just plain awkward when your in your own house and you can't even hold a conversation with the people in it.
I never thought I'd say this...but sunday can't come soon enough!
I don't even have any words of advice....I'm frustrated too!
You're right it is awful
You're right it is awful feeling awkward in your own home and it gets old very quickly. I've began dreading going home and actually wanting to go into the office on the weekends now just to get some peace and quiet. Stress is not good for the body. I don't even miss DH when he is out of on weekends when SS7 is here just as long as he takes him away from the house.
I wish I had some answers too, but you are not alone.
At least it is motivating me to get out and do some things for myself now. I'm going to join a gym and possibly go back and take a few more college classes just to escape. There I know SS7 can't invite himself along to raise chaos. I wish my family wasn't so far away as I'd hide over at their homes too. lol
Yep. I have felt the same.
Yep. I have felt the same. Its so difficult and gets so old so quick. Keep bringing it to his attention. He cannot be allowed to treat you that way. I have had to really stand up for myself. It hasn't become perfect, but it has gotten better sometimes. It can fluxuate. I wish I could give you specifics, but there are ways you will just need to try to command control when you are there. I think a lot of times, being uncomfortable in your home is because you lose your control over a space that you typically are in charge of. I HATE that feeling.
Totally agree!! I am so not
Totally agree!! I am so not in control over most things, and my house is something I should be in control of! I always say..."It's your world, I'm just living in it." that seems to sum it up for me!
HA! I say Its your world, I
HA! I say Its your world, I just pay the rent. Funny!!! But I do throw fits when I don't like something now. Don't care how it sounds or looks. This is my house.
Everyone of you were helpful
Everyone of you were helpful tome. DH and I did have a talk. Well....it started out as an argument.lol. But he says we will have to talk more when the kids leave so he can better understand where I am coming from. I am in my room now. I think I will do some reorganizing to pass the time.
Thanks Jenw for showing me a different side... I just have them every other weekend. That is a blessing! Have to go. Thanks to you all! I feel a littel better.
i hate that sick feeling. i
i hate that sick feeling. i wish i could take pills for it, but i don't want to become addicted to xanax. i do like the occasional one though